Looking through my posts, I noticed something about this detail that I hadn’t seen before. It’s a quality in the thought process of the painting that I want to put into the big painting that’s in the works. I don’t know if I can even describe it. What got my attention was the pale blue flower on the left hand side of the frog teapot near the lid — something about the color relationships and the summary aspect of the drawing. What I noticed first was the thin highlight that creates the top edge of the flower. I never noticed it before — then the rest of the brushstrokes.
The warm/cool color variations in the blue blob next to the flower (it’s also a flower) does also hint, hint, hint at something that I’m looking for. An answer is here inside my own little study (for a different painting) from a couple years ago.
It came like the solution to a puzzle. And I’m asking myself if there is any way I can put effects like this into the whole painting — into all the parts of all the things that are going into a 60 x 48 inch canvas.
And the obvious answer seems like it’s “no,” because I wasn’t even aware until now that I had made this small effect in this little painting. Though as I look at the little painting further I find additional little qualities that I think could form the technical structure for the painting in progress.
It’s really kind of crazy. But I see — dimly see — a path toward the painting that becomes now “mine” and not Pierre Bonnard’s anymore. I began the picture to study something about Bonnard and now I find there’s something about my own way of painting that I am struggling to understand and to recapitulate — to develop.
I write these things to remind myself because I’m often forgetting ideas. Somehow this painting above has many of the answers to the questions I’ve been asking myself lately. Still not quite sure how to use this information. But you start sometimes from hints since hints are better than nothing. So one is wise to follow them. They are compass bearings.
This is one of the reasons I produce this blog, because in sifting through my own past ideas, I get new ideas. And they help me paint. I hope it doesn’t sound too self-involved, but whatever it is I need to post a sign for myself saying “do this” — so this post is the sign.