Behind the finished paintings are lots and lots of drawings and sketches and what not. It’s all fun, except for when it’s not. But even when it’s not fun — if not fun in the right now — it’s fun later. I don’t think that has anything to do with art — that’s more about just living. Eckhart Tolle has some interesting ideas on the subject ….
What I mean, though, is that in my paintings I have ideas about what I want, but I don’t always know how to get there. In my indecisive states, I turn to my tools and make lots of trials. Since I often paint from life, it means sitting in front of the things and simply making color/drawing decisions.
Let’s put this here. Could as easily start with it being there, but here seems good. What if it’s this big. Okay, if it’s this big then that thingy is that big. (I think.) I believe it’s this color. Oops, no it’s more a fill-in-the-blank (cooler, darker, lighter, warmer, bluer, etc.) And so on, and so on.
I have begun thinking of them as rehearsals. Sometimes they’re even casting calls. Sometimes an object just isn’t working out … (So sorry, seashell, you’ve been great in other pictures but … um … you’re just not right for this one. Sorry. I’ll call you!)
Anyway, there are many versions of things. They end up in all stages of finish or unfinish. They help me think.